Only a Sting . . .

Ok so this afternoon we met with J for lunch, he only SLIGHTLY was insulting and narcissistic.  He gave us enough money to buy groceries with a little left over, with some we purchased lotto tickets.  The day is breezy and over-warm and I still have the task of  removing our dog's body from the premises, I'll do that tonight when I'm rested.  I dread this to the core.

I hope now for at least a week we can sit back, relax and have a semi happy existence.  Anyway, more when my brains unscramble.

Here We Go Again . . .

Looks like I'll be pawning my computer again, we're dead broke and running out of pretty much every essential.  Its 4 days to payday and we can't wait.  J was supposed to come here and take us out to eat but he's not called, usually he gives us a stipend when he does, I was going to ask for it anyway but he's not called so rather than swallowing my pride and texting him for the cash I'll just pawn the computer and get it out the 3rd.  We have cans we can sell but we're out of most pet food so that's not nearly enough.

Ok I can relax a little.  We are being wired money so I won't have to hock the computer again.  I will take the cans in with me and go ahead and get that cash, every little bit helps.  More later I'm sure.

Gomer, our large dog, just passed away :(

Well, still waiting for the wiring of the money, it was around noon when it was promised, it's nearly 5 now.  So I guess its not meant to be and I'll be pawning the computer after all tomorrow.  Lovely.

Here Come The Holidays . . .

So, as per usual Mother's thanksgiving sucked.  J TEXTED us a happy thanksgiving, we have $.64 in my purse, no bread in the house, Mother has been crying and has been in abject misery ever since she got up this morning, no one has called, our dog is dying, and in general life just fucking sucks.  Happy thanksgiving, y'all.

And another fun fact, I can't access many of my personal documents, my internet is slow and unstable, I'm too pissed off to have much interest in doing anything so . . . when are the holidays over?!

Forgot to Mention:

I was recently gifted The Witches Tarot and I absolutely love the deck.  I have given 3 readings so far and everyone is happy with the interpretations.  I also ordered for myself the Voice of the Trees Oracle and I adore that as well.  My readings are all gloom and doom (but with a silver lining) but the readings I've given others have been very positive.  I'm glad, but even if the readings were negative I'd tell them, I'd have to.  It's harder than I thought though, reading complete strangers.  Nothing to draw on because I don't know them well enough, or not at all.  Some easy . . . WILL I FIND LOVE.  Well, yes, yes you will if you purposefully stride forth and LOOK for it.  The Gods(esses) are not going to just drop a man or woman into your living room and if you are doing NOTHING to find romance you will never get there.  I can show by the cards there is a romance out there, but it's up to you to go find it.

But enough of that.  I also got two pendulums, one bloodstone, one Amethyst.  An amethyst bracelet and an amethyst polished stone.  It also came with a rough chip but I just a couple of days ago lost that.  It dropped, into a trash can I think, never to be seen again, I was just crushed.  I'm supposed to be receiving two more gifts, a set of blue onyx runes and a lapis pendulum.  Yule gifts.  Can't wait :).

So that's where life is right now, I'll have more later on :)