Waiting for the Shift ...

I'm waiting for the weather to change, supposed to be 44 tonight but it's hot as hell now, over 80.  It just sprinkled rain and the sun came back out.  I ordered more blankets for me and Mother, 2 each.  Tomorrow I hope to get out and get some washing done, considering taking a sleep aid around 10 and forgoing staying up late.  Not worth it anyway Hallmark has stopped the nightly showings of Murder, She Wrote in lieu of fucking christmas shows till fucking JANUARY.  Ain't life grand.  I am going to get all 12 seasons for myself for solstice so I don't have to depend on them.  I still watch it daily on Cozi, but that's 2 episodes a day.  Yes I know I'm ridiculously addicted but I just love that show I don't care how many times I've seen it.  Right now I'm watching Longmire.  Finished Penny Dreadful.  On that I guess I'll go, in a little while I have to start cooking.  I'm not hungry I made a high protein breakfast and Mother has eaten on and off all day.  But we'll see.

Looking To Tomorrow . . .

Today I wanted to do a lot but really spent two hours sitting in my car waiting on the mail because I had packages due.  She finally got here at 2:30.  Mother is in a piss poor mood so I get to deal with that on a daily basis.  It's like 90 degrees in here and she's freezing.  Something I am very weary of.  There is a lot around here I am very leery of.

In my packages, I got 3 books I ordered, only 1 I had to pay for and my color changing incense burner (it's really great!), and my plant I've been expecting.

So there's that.  I have to do some reorganizing in here I'm running out of space.  So much devoted to coloring and coloring supplies.  Books.  Dvds.  I'll figure something out.  Other things I have to figure out too while I'm at it.  We'll see.

Feeling A Little Beaten . . .

I have to do something and I have to meditate on it long and hard.  I've decided to leave the chatroom.  Really, I've decided not to be online so much at all starting tomorrow.  I have enough domestic chores to do around here to keep me busy all day every day and in my down time I can color, read and write.  It's what I need to be doing.  I'm being treated so poorly in chat there is no sense in my staying.  So I won't.  No more broadcasts either, although I will upload stuff to you tube.  Set up a scene outside, and use that as my studio and upload vids about herbs, crystals, hedgewitchery, and practical things for those new to the magickal arts.  I'll need to go to my you tube channel and fix that up, it'll need to be a playlist of its own.  Might even use the rbarcs youtube for it, just start all over again.  But that's not for right now.  Right now is for organizing, thinking things out, and doing what is good for ME and doing my own thing.  The group mentality always breaks down after a while, someone comes along that wants to be boss and they have this little teenybopper bitch that wants to be head keeper at the zoo and has it in for me in depth.  She must be cybersucking the cock of the owner.  But that's fine too, I noticed a lot of people are leaving some are coming to a couple of other chats I'm on as well, but, not enough.  The alternate chats are dead and boring.  I'll keep looking I may find one yet.