I Wish . . .

I wish I were left alone more.  I'd like to be able to take Mother somewhere for a couple of hours a day, a couple of days a week, so I could just have some time to myself.


I wish I could get myself to do more with the time I've got.  Finish a novel, get this weight off, landscape the property.


I wish life was much more uncomplicated.  I wish for more money and more freedom.


If wishes were horses, dreamers would ride.

Bleh . . .

I'm so disgusted lately.  All I'm doing is getting fatter, I'm not doing shit, I feel like shit.  But I'm working on it.  I can't sit here and do nothing forever.  For one thing I'm going to clean this room again.  Get outside in the evening and walk.  Eat cleaner.  Lose this weight.  Finish my novel.  Market it.  Sell it. Start my life, again.  And on that, on to getting it done.

So Tired . . .

Got back from WalMart we spent $145.00 and didn't buy all that much to eat.  We'd eat at Pueblo Viejo so Mother could have a nice lunch since she had a crappy Mother's day, I gorged myself.  But back on program tomorrow.  One good thing is we bought a box fan for this room it's heaven already.  We also bought a small fan for Mother's room she's happy with it.  I got me another box of cereal for breakfast, low fat poptarts for snacks.  Wednesday I am taking Sydney to Dr. McCluskey to get him neutered.  I hope he fares well I'm a little worried.  We have got to get Apple spayed, Sylver spayed, Sadie and PJ spayed.  That would ultimately end our dog population.

Sadness . . .

One of our dogs died tonight, a little 7 month old terrier.  It was very sudden, I think he may have been poisoned.  I'm so sad, he was a sweet little dog.  Rest in peace, my little Bear :(

Back To Normal?

We switched our internet and satellite back to Suddenlink cable.  I think we (I) made a huge mistake.  I keep forgetting how badly people hate our dogs, for starters, secondly, we don't get all the channels we had with satellite, so no more Monster Man unless I watch it on Hulu.  No Logo or Bravo either.  BUT we do get all the channels that NASCAR comes on, even Speed (we pay extra).  Main thing is I got my internet back my goodness I've not played that much Solitaire in my life I don't believe.  I even brought out Minesweeper for a while.  Should have spent the downtime writing but can't with all the interruptions.  It's been a hard two weeks.

It's Going to Be A Bumpy Ride . . .

It's going to start storming again tomorrow, going to be severe by Sunday I hope we don't get blown away, this trailer is not tied down.  I'm not really worried, I am worried about my plants though, starting my little garden again.  I need to cover my hawarthia it is living, even blooming, but I need to protect it from more wind and rain, it's  not doing all that great, I'm just hoping it makes it and comes fully back.  I rather expect my hosta to but I don't guess it is going to.  I'll get some more when we go back to WalMart once we get paid again.  I ordered some datura seed from Parkseed can't wait for them to get here.  In the meantime I have some seed I'm going to go ahead and plant here and there, maybe tomorrow before the rain but best wait till after I guess.  Going to go for now, just wanted to get something out there.


Later, 2:59 p.m.


Now the house is looking more like hoarders live here.  Mother insisted on getting that goddamned chair in here, well I think I have a broken back, but it's in here, it's way too big for the space and it STINKS.  Anyone dealing with an elderly person who gets unreasonably attached to a specific chair should be able to empathize.  There is a can of febreeze I can get to, I'll hose it down with that before I go to bed tonight and it can freshen it somewhat overnight.  We'll see how it goes.

Headphones

Ok so I got some headphones today so I can play around on the net and keep my YOUTUBE playlist up and not annoy the motherperson.  I pulled up Daydream Believer and favored it, but cried as it played, I still can't believe Davy was taken from us so far too  soon.  But it's not like I'd ever get to meet the guy  anyway, and excellent memories were left so, well, that's it.  I got  a set of speakers too but I don't know if they don't work well or I didn't have them plugged all the way in.  I'll check it out later.  I'm dead tired now.  Interesting note.  Before I turned on the music I had godawful stomach pain, now I'm fine.  Music heals, doesn't it?  Think I'll listen to Free For All again.