Thinking About It Again . . .

It's never far from my mind.  Reading Tarot for extra money, or for a living if it was successful.  All I lack is a place to do it.  I would insist on cash only, and would read maybe 4 - 5 people per day.  $20 - $25 each.  $10 for oracle readings or rune readings.  Would be nice.

But now I'm still grappling with the second job thing I cannot get myself to go there.  I guess I'll try again tomorrow morning since I was so lax on going today in spite of being awake at 9.  My instinct is to wait and see if I get more days next week.  The check I have coming should cover the bills I have left for this month and I can worry about next month's when it gets here.  We'll see, I'll meditate on it.

Another Bland Day . . .

Well, it started out bad, actually.  Starting at about 5 a.m. I had to pee so up I got and got it done and went back to sleep.  Since then every hour I've had to pee.  I guess because I've reintroduced caffeine back into my diet with morning coffee.  Sad though that is, the worst came when I woke the final time at 11 a.m..  The cat had knocked my speakers off the desk they were just hanging there and had knocked my mouse off and the dogs had chewed the mouse off the cord AND one had gotten up on the desk and tore up an entire box of tissues.  Could have killed them.  Thank goodness I had a spare mouse and it works (so far).  I hope for great change in the fall.  Counting on it. 

Today's plans are laundry only then work tonight.  I'll be off two days after today.  I have to go Thursday and see about a day job I don't want but have to get because the way it is I cannot continue with what little I make.

Struggling . . .

I still have 2 large bills due now and only enough money to pay 1 if I am going to be able to buy pet food.  I hope to hear from the auto insurance company on Monday and convince her to allow me to wait until the 14th to pay the auto insurance.  When I paid bills the 31st I did it wrong, I should have held my smaller bills to the second paycheck and paid the big ones first.  But I have faith it will all work out.  I have to buy pet food so I am just going to do it and the lady is just going to have to work with me.  Eventually a lot of this stuff I'm paying on will be paid off and I'll be more on easy street, it's just going to take a while to get there.

As usual it's hot today, we got a good rainstorm yesterday but not so lucky today.  They say starting tomorrow for 4 days we could get rain but we'll see how that actually goes.  I know my garden is happy and that makes me happy.  Everything doing well out there.  I'm glad.

The kittens I rescued are doing very well.  Onyx, the little black one I just picked up this morning to see about and he is just a little butterball.  I am so thrilled to have another black cat since Mydnyght disappeared a couple of years ago.  When he (or she I'm really not sure) is old enough I WILL do the neuter/spay to increase the probability he will stay home.  The others are adorable as well, another 2 calicos and a little black and white one which I will name Cookie.

New Babies, Autumn, Getting Back in Life . . .

Yesterday I was outside and heard kittens crying.  I looked over the rail and there was a tiny black kitten and I could hear another one on the other side of the trailer.  I picked up the black kitten and took it to the other side and looked under the trailer and saw a little calico.  I crawled under and got her and brought her and the black one in in a bin, putting them on an old shirt to keep them warm.  I knew Candi was the one who birthed them so I put her in with them and she began to nurse them (thank goodness!)  I didn't see or hear any more.  This morning I was out again and heard kittens crying.  Looked under the trailer and found another calico and farther up found a little black and white one. I HOPE that is all of them.  I reunited them with their mother and she is being a good mom and nursing them.

Though it's still overtly warm, it is not as hot as before.  Nights are very pleasant.  This morning I made my first pot of coffee in over 2 months and WOW ... the caffeine rush after 2 cups was invigorating!  But perhaps our cooldown is about to begin I surely hope so.  I'm feeling more like doing things and I hope to do more stuff as time goes on and the weather permits.  Right now I'm just living day to day and enjoying each one as I can.

Summertime . . .

So goddamned hot.  Over 100 degrees.  For like the next 4 days. I'm so tired of it I can't believe how miserable I am.  I can't look forward to a trailer if I even get one till the fall.  My luck man I tell you.  Before dark I need to get out and water my garden I'd like to see it thrive if I can.

I'm off work till Saturday night, then off again Sunday, go back on Monday.  I'd like to quit.  I hate that damned job. Looking for another one but good luck with that.

Getting Out Finally . . .

I had hired a woman to come today to clean up my yard and I didn't realize Social Security had grabbed what was left of Mother's money.  So all I had left was my paycheck which covered the contract but now I can't pay my credit card bills or get the new tv I wanted till next payday.  I have to go tomorrow and get dog food and canned cat food.  I'll get some more of those bagged meals I still have some pizza and some roasts and mashed potatoes, mac and cheese and canned vegetables.  I need to eat better, more veggies.  I went today to Schlotzsky's thinking I'd get one of their fabulous reubens, but alas they don't have them so I got a turkey club and wouldn't you know it they put onions on the goddamned thing.  My eating out days are coming to a close pretty quick ... it's not necessary to put skanky onion on every goddamned thing out there.  I'll just cook for myself.

Anyway thank the Gods I'd gotten all the bills paid besides the credit cards so I'm pretty scott free this month.  Will begin anew next month and see how I fare.  I won't ask you know who for handouts.

It's been raining all day, pretty hard for a while there it's very cool.  I'm cold as a matter of fact but won't shut off the air conditioner, it will warm up too much.  Very comfortable.  I'm being terrorized by a tiny tiger that has taken over my desk.  She is so obnoxious.

I have to get my PC set back up in here I don't know if it still works or not they knocked it off Mom's desk about 3 times I finally laid it flat so tomorrow I am going to try to clear some space and get it back in here.  I have to wait for daylight.

Having to wait for a soda to thaw so I can eat my other sandwich and take my allergy med.

1st Day Back and We Get Drunks ...

So last night was my first night back at work since Mom's passing and wouldn't you know it ... drunks.  First was a couple that went to blows, we had to call the cops.  Second was about 4 people one extremely vulgar loud mouthed hobag making a spectacle.  Unless they started throwing stuff we couldn't do anything.  Blissfully they finally left and the night quieted down.

Today is hot and miserable as it is with summers in southeast Texas.  I'm contemplating a writing schedule and about to go back to work on my novel.  I'm hoping to have my little bistro set put together tomorrow, I am going to be way short on money I have to pay back my friend that helped me get my uniform and stuff to start work in and we have bills, but I think I'll have one month of Mother's social security I can pay the bills with that.  I'll find out at midnight tonight.  Anyway on to bigger and better things, like, cooling off somehow.