Raining and Cooler . . .

Which is nice, but, it has to stop by 3:30 so I can go pick up my new purse, wallet and comforter.  Apparently we're in for a lot of rain over the next 10 days which would be nice.  The cooler weather certainly is.

Still trying to get to McD's to start my day job, just can't get myself up in time.  I was actually up earlier today but honestly I'm about to lie back down again.  I don't know about my future, it is awful glum right now.

Preparing for Job Hunt . . .

I have to go tomorrow and look for another job.  Starting at McD's and onward to other places.  I have to go pay on my camera but I'll wait until the day it's due to pay it so I don't have to worry about it the first of the month, but I need to get it out somehow.  I want it out by October.

It's been hot and stuffy all day.  Lolly seems to be doing better she's still really whiney but she's fat and she's strong.  She is eating.  Her mother keeps putting her head in her mouth that pisses me off.  She's sleeping right now.

Gotta work tonight I hope I get my full 4 hours but I have a suspicion my manager has got it in for me now and wants me out.  I don't know why I do what I'm supposed to do I show up on time and every shift can't imagine what the problem is other than people fucking suck which I've known for quite some time now.

Sick of Summer . . .

I am so sick of summer I cannot tolerate the heat.  But tolerate it I do, what else am I going to do?  Right now I'm washing clothes.  Had a full washer.  Tomorrow will try to get up early and hit the jobhunt trail, McD's first.  I'll probably go place to place to see if anyone will talk to me about work.  Domino's, Popeyes, Subway.  Anyone.  It's going to be hot, I have that cross to bear.

In October my friend and I are planning a trip to Houston's Pagan Pride day.  That will be fun I think but it will still be hot.  Doesn't really cool off here till November.  But I'm yearning to get out.  I'm going to get my camera out of hock this next payday I'll figure a way to do that.  I want it back.

Thank Gods All Is Well . . .

Got home tonight and the bin the kittens had been in had been turned over and knocked off the table.  I couldn't see the kittens anywhere.  Finally heard them cry, noticed my monitor had been moved forward and looked and they had been moved there.  I don't know what I'll do with them from now on but I have to do something to make sure they are alright while I'm gone.  I'm off the next two days and in those days I have to look for a day job.  But for tonight I'm tired, and I'm going to bed.

Last Straw . . .

We had to get a certificate for food handlers to continue to work at the restaurant.  I got that and drove all over town trying to get it printed out, the usb cord is out on my printer.  Finally got it done for free at the library.  I dropped it off at work and looked at the schedule for this week, hoping for more hours but was sadly disappointed.  So tomorrow morning off I go to McDonald's to see if I can get some day hours to stave off starvation.  Should they hire me and I make more hours there I might kill off WhatABurger and just stick with Mc.  We'll see.

Too Much Wine . . .

Got my head all fuzzy and making me eat weird stuff.  I have a pizza heating but had some on it's own turkey breast (rather than in a sandwich).  Foregoing soda until the pizza is done then will chase ibuprofen to ward off the inevitable hangover.

I'm pleased to see Travel Channel is playing decent ghost shows again.  A Haunting, My Haunted House, Haunted Things.  Awesome hope it's like forever.  Love these shows.  I believe, totally.  Though on some I do call bullshit.

Dead Day . . .

I slept late today, till 1 p.m. so mostly I've done nothing.  Rather than breakfast I drank a soda to wake up then had chicken stirfry for lunch.  Then finished the peanut butter in the jar.  It's been cloudy and rainy today, cooler, which I deeply appreciate.  I've been so bored but lax in doing anything, the heat makes me feel like a slug.

Thinking About It Again . . .

It's never far from my mind.  Reading Tarot for extra money, or for a living if it was successful.  All I lack is a place to do it.  I would insist on cash only, and would read maybe 4 - 5 people per day.  $20 - $25 each.  $10 for oracle readings or rune readings.  Would be nice.

But now I'm still grappling with the second job thing I cannot get myself to go there.  I guess I'll try again tomorrow morning since I was so lax on going today in spite of being awake at 9.  My instinct is to wait and see if I get more days next week.  The check I have coming should cover the bills I have left for this month and I can worry about next month's when it gets here.  We'll see, I'll meditate on it.

Another Bland Day . . .

Well, it started out bad, actually.  Starting at about 5 a.m. I had to pee so up I got and got it done and went back to sleep.  Since then every hour I've had to pee.  I guess because I've reintroduced caffeine back into my diet with morning coffee.  Sad though that is, the worst came when I woke the final time at 11 a.m..  The cat had knocked my speakers off the desk they were just hanging there and had knocked my mouse off and the dogs had chewed the mouse off the cord AND one had gotten up on the desk and tore up an entire box of tissues.  Could have killed them.  Thank goodness I had a spare mouse and it works (so far).  I hope for great change in the fall.  Counting on it. 

Today's plans are laundry only then work tonight.  I'll be off two days after today.  I have to go Thursday and see about a day job I don't want but have to get because the way it is I cannot continue with what little I make.

Struggling . . .

I still have 2 large bills due now and only enough money to pay 1 if I am going to be able to buy pet food.  I hope to hear from the auto insurance company on Monday and convince her to allow me to wait until the 14th to pay the auto insurance.  When I paid bills the 31st I did it wrong, I should have held my smaller bills to the second paycheck and paid the big ones first.  But I have faith it will all work out.  I have to buy pet food so I am just going to do it and the lady is just going to have to work with me.  Eventually a lot of this stuff I'm paying on will be paid off and I'll be more on easy street, it's just going to take a while to get there.

As usual it's hot today, we got a good rainstorm yesterday but not so lucky today.  They say starting tomorrow for 4 days we could get rain but we'll see how that actually goes.  I know my garden is happy and that makes me happy.  Everything doing well out there.  I'm glad.

The kittens I rescued are doing very well.  Onyx, the little black one I just picked up this morning to see about and he is just a little butterball.  I am so thrilled to have another black cat since Mydnyght disappeared a couple of years ago.  When he (or she I'm really not sure) is old enough I WILL do the neuter/spay to increase the probability he will stay home.  The others are adorable as well, another 2 calicos and a little black and white one which I will name Cookie.

New Babies, Autumn, Getting Back in Life . . .

Yesterday I was outside and heard kittens crying.  I looked over the rail and there was a tiny black kitten and I could hear another one on the other side of the trailer.  I picked up the black kitten and took it to the other side and looked under the trailer and saw a little calico.  I crawled under and got her and brought her and the black one in in a bin, putting them on an old shirt to keep them warm.  I knew Candi was the one who birthed them so I put her in with them and she began to nurse them (thank goodness!)  I didn't see or hear any more.  This morning I was out again and heard kittens crying.  Looked under the trailer and found another calico and farther up found a little black and white one. I HOPE that is all of them.  I reunited them with their mother and she is being a good mom and nursing them.

Though it's still overtly warm, it is not as hot as before.  Nights are very pleasant.  This morning I made my first pot of coffee in over 2 months and WOW ... the caffeine rush after 2 cups was invigorating!  But perhaps our cooldown is about to begin I surely hope so.  I'm feeling more like doing things and I hope to do more stuff as time goes on and the weather permits.  Right now I'm just living day to day and enjoying each one as I can.